bearing

wondering, listening, feigning to not be sinking

in the sadness and mire

it's thick and deep 

this murk i'm swimming in

loss, schism, pain, unfaithful

unfathomable, somber

heavy, weighty

pushing down the few "F"s that surface

{feelings}

someone often said the Lord gives us burdens for people, place, circumstances

and those burdens typically feel light, or bearable

but all.at.once.  swirling.  fourteen things all at once.

gratitude makes bearing bearable

i'm thankful that i'm not alone.  that you are with.

i'm thankful that when i'm weary or afraid or uncertain or frustrated or overwhelmed, that burden is not one i bear alone

surrounded by mentors and friends and strangers and you, i become convinced that we can move forward together.  not alone, but with.

bearing.  together.